On a Trip

I am trying something new...

No one has the answers that I am looking for but they can provide a path or starting point for me. At this point in my life, I am not sure what I am looking for...spiritualism or higher purpose or meaning to my life, but I do feel a little confused and lost. I am not sure I will find what I am looking for in life or in myself but I thought I would see what the world, god, higher power, etc has in store for me. I feel like a traveling hobo with all my possessions in a red table cloth hanging from a stick.

A few months ago, my old friend did help me find the starting point of the path of self analysis, accepting the things I cannot change, enlightenment (whatever you want to call it). I have "baby crawled" the rest of the steps on my own. Someone forgot to tell me that this would not be easy. Having so many paths and directions it can be a little overwhelming. How do you know which direction to take? People tell you to listen to yourself, trust yourself, if that was the case I would not be searching right now for something that I have no idea what it is. (if you understand that) To date, "myself" has gotten me into plenty of trouble.

Is traveling the paths part of a trial and error experiment? Should I be jotting down my notes/thoughts/feelings so that I can better understand the results? Maybe then I would be able to comprehend what just happened to me, possible duplicate the actions (if they're correct) so that the results are the same. But what if that path is not correct? Maybe for the time being it feels correct but in the long run, I have taken a small detour from where I should be. I don't mind making mistakes, the bumps in the road do not bother me as much as they used to when I was a little younger (3 months ago).I guess I should just enjoy the journey. Correct?

Hence the next question...How do you become satisfied with the way life is going?

Alright, that's enough of the pity party, since I have been visiting this site (Zaadz), I found/learned a mind blowing number of ideas. Ideas that I want to explore more deeply and passionately, but I do not know which one I should start with first. I am like a sponge at the moment soaking up all the information that I can.